Lately, I feel very sad. I miss my brother and sister a lot. I feel like a huge part of myself is being pulled to them. This is their senior year in high school. They have a lot of big events going on. They will have prom, grad night, my sister has her last school play ever and of course, graduation. Hubby, the kids and I already have plane tickets to fly down there and go to their graduation. And I am greatly looking forward to it. The kids and I will be down there for an entire week (Hubby will come home a few days earlier because he has to work) and then my brother and sister will come back with us to visit for a week. It is three months away. And I cannot wait.
However, all of these other things will happen between now and then. The big one that hits me in the gut and kind of makes me want to cry is my sister's play. I cannot tell you why but it feels so sad to me that I cannot be there. I so desperately want to. The most aggrivating part is that the week of the show is the week Hubby is off for Spring Break. Which means it is only money keeping us from going - or me from going. Yes, I am willing to leave my family behind for three or four days and fly down to Florida by myself to be there and see her show. I WANT to in fact. Doesn't that tell you just how much I want to get to be there? When do I EVER want to be away from my family? Just writing this I am in tears.
I miss them. I want to be able to be there for these big events. Sure, being there for things like prom and getting to see them all dressed up would be awesome. Sure, I'd love to get to see them and their friends getting into a limo but in the end I know how unrealistic that is. I know I cannot go down there now and stay until June (although, my sister has offered to hide me in her room if I want). I know I have things to do here. But it feels like I am SO CLOSE to being able to go to the show. It feels like I am just not seeing something in front of my face.
Sigh. I am very sad right now. And so my Aloha Friday question to you this week is if you could plan a trip to anywere where would you plan to go? You, obviously know my answer.
However, all of these other things will happen between now and then. The big one that hits me in the gut and kind of makes me want to cry is my sister's play. I cannot tell you why but it feels so sad to me that I cannot be there. I so desperately want to. The most aggrivating part is that the week of the show is the week Hubby is off for Spring Break. Which means it is only money keeping us from going - or me from going. Yes, I am willing to leave my family behind for three or four days and fly down to Florida by myself to be there and see her show. I WANT to in fact. Doesn't that tell you just how much I want to get to be there? When do I EVER want to be away from my family? Just writing this I am in tears.
I miss them. I want to be able to be there for these big events. Sure, being there for things like prom and getting to see them all dressed up would be awesome. Sure, I'd love to get to see them and their friends getting into a limo but in the end I know how unrealistic that is. I know I cannot go down there now and stay until June (although, my sister has offered to hide me in her room if I want). I know I have things to do here. But it feels like I am SO CLOSE to being able to go to the show. It feels like I am just not seeing something in front of my face.
Sigh. I am very sad right now. And so my Aloha Friday question to you this week is if you could plan a trip to anywere where would you plan to go? You, obviously know my answer.
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