I have been in a slump all week. I think it started when I got home from Florida. You see I miss my family. The first time we tried to come home last week Big Brother and I were crying. Neither of us wanted to leave. We were so sad! The second time we were ready to go home but we were all very sorry that we live so far away. We were ready to be home and sleep in our own beds. Especially Big Sister. I think she missed her crib. :) So, I was kind of numb coming home. A little out of it and already slipping into a bit of a slump.
And then on Tuesday I got the call from our coordinator that let us know about the possible delays and stuff. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I have not really wanted to do anything since then. I just want my baby. This process has been a really long journey. Every step along the way something has gone wrong. When our coordinator originally called with our court date she mentioned how surprised she was that it was so soon. I suppose I should have known then that something would go wrong. But I was just very hopeful! And excited.
So, all week I have put off my responsibilities. I have not sat down to pay bills. I have not done laundry. I have not done the cleaning like I usually do. I am in a funk. My sister sent me home from Florida with her copy of Twilight and I read through it in two days. I immediately went out and got the other three and I have finished two of them. I have kind of thrown myself into the series so I don't really have to think about the slump I am in.
There is still hope for our court date. I am still hoping and praying that we will pass. But I am also kind of closed off from really hoping or planning. Luckily it is Friday and I am hoping that moving forward one way or the other on Friday should help me at least a little. Today I am going to do all the things I have been putting off all week - the laundry, pay the bills and go through all my emails from vacation so that I can actually pick winners to the giveaways that ended this week. :)
So, I hope you will all excuse my mood and keep my family and I in your prayers.
And then on Tuesday I got the call from our coordinator that let us know about the possible delays and stuff. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I have not really wanted to do anything since then. I just want my baby. This process has been a really long journey. Every step along the way something has gone wrong. When our coordinator originally called with our court date she mentioned how surprised she was that it was so soon. I suppose I should have known then that something would go wrong. But I was just very hopeful! And excited.
So, all week I have put off my responsibilities. I have not sat down to pay bills. I have not done laundry. I have not done the cleaning like I usually do. I am in a funk. My sister sent me home from Florida with her copy of Twilight and I read through it in two days. I immediately went out and got the other three and I have finished two of them. I have kind of thrown myself into the series so I don't really have to think about the slump I am in.
There is still hope for our court date. I am still hoping and praying that we will pass. But I am also kind of closed off from really hoping or planning. Luckily it is Friday and I am hoping that moving forward one way or the other on Friday should help me at least a little. Today I am going to do all the things I have been putting off all week - the laundry, pay the bills and go through all my emails from vacation so that I can actually pick winners to the giveaways that ended this week. :)
So, I hope you will all excuse my mood and keep my family and I in your prayers.
Awwww....I'm sorry you're feeling so blue. I'm praying that your court date goes well and you can be holding you little girl very very soon.
ReplyDeleteSending lots of hugs your way. Hopefully you get good new soon about Baby Sister so you can have your family all together. In the meantime take it easy and enjoy the rest of the books :)
ReplyDeleteHang in there :)
ReplyDelete(((Hugs)))I'm sorry you have been so sad :( But if you have to keep busy, Twilight is the way to go! I hope you get some good news soon.
ReplyDeleteSending you all my love - hang in there - just when you don't expet it God opens a window!!
ReplyDeleteaww... so sorry friend! i truly hope everything goes smoothly... and quickly!! :) lots of hugs
ReplyDeleteSorry that your feeling down! I will definitely be praying for you and your family. Hopefully things will get better soon!
ReplyDeleteYou are in my thoughts and prayers mama!
ReplyDeleteI've been in a funk too (if you havent noticed) I hope we both get out of it soon & of course I will keep you all in my prayers! little sister will be home soon *sigh*
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