Happy Mother's Day

Last year I was already a mom. I was pretty experienced with the mom thing. I was excited to celebrate Mother's Day with my family. But I was also a little sad that my baby had not made his/her way into my arms. I wanted so badly to know them and at least be on my way to bringing them home. And here I am a year later and I still do not have that child. I still do not know anything about him/her. And some days are difficult. Some days I just want to cry. But not today. Today I am grateful for the two wonderful kids I do have. I may still be waiting but I am not focusing on anything negative. I am simplying marveling at the wonders that are these two amazing little people that I get the privilidge of parenting.

To Big Brother I say thank you for brightening my days. Thank you for all the hugs and kisses and love you give openly and freely at every turn. I am so honored to be your mom. I love all of our time together.

You have grown up quite a bit since last Mother's Day. You are taller and smarter. You are funnier and sweeter. But you are still my little baby. You are still the little boy who curls up in my lap and asks me to read you a book. And I love that about you. I love that you are so big and capable. You have moved into the next level of hockey, you are gearing up for kindergarten and you are almost reading (if only you had the patience to sit and really try). I also love that you still need me. You still need hugs and kisses. You still want time with me and with your daddy. And most of all your sister. You are such an amazing brother. And I thank you. I love you little man!! Thanks for being my first ever reason to celebrate Mother's Day (as a mom).

And to Big Sister I say thank you for all the times you demand my attention. Thank you for calling out "mamamama" whenever you think I might not have noticed you. I am so grateful that you have come into our lives. Being your mom is such a lovely gift.

Last year you were swimming around in my belly. You already had your personality. You already loved ice cream and when Daddy played the guitar for you. You were already a part of our family but (obviously) you are very different this year. I am so proud of all you are accomplishing. Even if I worry too much about whether or not to pick you up and carry you. I am amazed that you have already pulled yourself up a few times. You have pretty much mastered the crawling thing. You are working on independence. You can get caught up playing and not need or want anyone or anything. Until I walk by you and then all you want is me. And you want to know a secret? I love that you want me. I love that (usually) I can make it all better just by picking you up. And I love how much you love your brother. I love the smile you get on your face when he comes into the room. So, thank you baby girl for coming into our family. I love you so much!!! Thank you for making this Mother's Day even fuller.